On Thursday, the 30-year-old British model shared several throwback black and white photos of herself posing in a bralette and jeans. She took to the caption to open up about her struggles with openly owning her sexuality admitting that she misses “the old me.”
“Sometimes I miss how comfortable in my sexuality I was. How unashamed I was of nudity and posing provocatively but in an unforced natural way. I shut myself off from a lot of things when I grew a platform, started to feel the pressure of people holding me to a ‘role model’ standard and expecting me to be the perfect polite well rehearsed human. I remember telling P at a cardi gig – I don’t even feel comfortable twerkin in public letting ‘loose’ I feel the eyes on me even when they’re not – I don’t want to let people down and be a ‘bad role model’ I don’t want to to be a ‘bad influence,’” Lawrence wrote.
She added that she decided to share this to help other people who feel the pressure of being an “online personality” and feeling as if they need to “shrink or deny parts of themselves.”
“Regardless of what industry you’re in there’s certain standards I think we all feel like we have to adhere to to be socially acceptable online – how do you feel about that?” She added, “Because I’m really trying to re-find all these lost parts of me.”